I am sooo fed up with people who get all mad when you say something without intending to insult them but they become so nervous they cant even tell you what youve done wrong
like my mom. we were planning to watch a movie but we couldnt start cos she had things to do so i was waiting for her for so long and then in the end it was less than an hour until she had plans so we wouldnt actually have time to watch the movie so ive told her that she should hurry up and she got all mad at me for no reason cos apparently i should have offered to help which ive done like twice but she rejected so now i am the one to blame
WTF?
:/

i wanna do something fun...please!
my friends have been to Bulgria for two weeks.. i havent been nowhere.. its been so long i havent had a proper rest.. i just sit home, go to cafes, cinema... all the routine
i want to go to another country with my friends too.. somewhere unusual, not bloody Cyprus -.-

basically what we.re gonna do is nothing

so my mom and my bro have gone away for 3 days. i'm having a lazy evening. watching tv and eating a lot. have no idea what to do for these 3 days.

basically what we're gonna do is...DANCE!

apricots

so i'm eating apricots. i'm home alone. kind of bored.
tomorrow might go out and then..football? not sure that i'm looking forward to this part.
might just cancel it. i like watching football if it's World Cup or Ukraine playing and it's Ukraine - Turkey tomorrow but i think i'm not bothered and i already have plans. so hopefull i will just have a quiet evening at home.
so what else?
i played tennis today. i think i'm getting better and better. i'll have to play tennis in my school so just getting ready, y'know.
still havent found out my results and my friend is pissing me off with asking me about them
it's not like the thing i want the most is to tell her my results... argh.

summer 2009

well summer is summer, and even if you spend it at home with computer and tv and waking up at 1 pm, you still love it.
because it's summer
my summer is lovely though. not like one of the bests but still pretty much interesting.
i'm in Kyiv right now but i went to Odessa for 2 days. well, all i've done is shopping, restaurants and long walks with my dad. and it was fine.
then i went to my grandmom's place. and i just came back yesterday. u know like sometimes you have these crazy nights when you get drunk and flirt with every single guy? well, it was one of those. so i drank the legendary Revo cocktail. people say you can get hallucinations if you drink too much. well, i was just plain drunk. and i was laying on a shoulder of my married friend. which wasn't that innocent because he just had a row with his wife so he tried to kiss me and all this stuff. the good thing is that even with a lack of soberness, i tried to slap him and i kept repeating that he has a wife and a son. he's quite cute though. but oh well i can't even imagine seeing his wife after this.
so the gcse results are out. everyone knows them except me. i don't quite know how do i get them. and it's not like i want them anyway. but i guess i'll have to find out. before anyone else does :)
so i think i'll keep updating you with the news. i have to practise my english anyway.

xoxo

its so fucking annoying cos u dont care about us.. u dont care about anything!
u say that we'll never see you again with a smile on your face
you like to make a tragedy of yourself leaving.. look i'm so great, cry about me...u dont understand how it hurts. u dont understand.
i remember sometime ago u told me u wont be missing anyone when you'll leave. and i still remember it.
we really do love you. u can't even imagine how much. how much we'll miss you. and what you really mean to us and me especially.
why do u have to be like this? why do u hurt people this way? don't u have feelings?


oh. shall i just give up trying? fuuck. i feel like crying.


:(

why my friends never understand how i feel?
they never get the reason. they need to get everything explained. but i won't explain.

people will let you down

you know on my way to school i always see this graffiti on the wall which says "people will let you down"
well, people do let me down. so much happened while i wasn't here. first, i wanted to tell you everything but i think there's no sense. i mean it's not the point. my biggest problem is that whenever someone close to me is in a bad mood it makes me feel sad. so today everyone was in a bad mood and my mood is all the bad moods added up. imagine, how i feel. i can't revise and i really have to.
fuck.

let's play a love game

hmm i'm totally inspired by lady gaga
i think i'm going to draw her as my final piece for art
she's strange but she's cool
and my brother is an idiot
what else? have already done my art gcse exam, hope it went well and the cambridge examiner(or whoever is coming to grade it) will like it
2 days till hooome
and tomorrow i'm making this goodbye party. just going to friday's to have a little chat and then probably going clubbing just for a bit
my friend has met this hot guy so i'm looking forward to see him :)

xoxo

:)

my first post in april
so basically, usual things happened. i've almost finished my art gcse
on the 21st of april i'm going to the UK to see the schools
and i feel amazing now even though it's almost midnight, i'm not sleeping, my room's a mess(i seriously need to cleen it up) and i feel fat(i've gained so much but at least i'm curvy now)
enjoying life and appreciating what i've got
the right psychology is to enjoy the moment without thinking about past and future. whenever you think you have problems, ask yourself: "are there any problems right now? in this second?" the most likely answer is "no". there's no problems at the moment. all your problems are regarding past and future. so why that's not a good reason to love life?

How to Lose 2 Guys in 10 Days

So basically, i said "no" to both of these guys who were making these attemps to meet up. Well not literally, of course, i was just acting careless so they had to give it up. And now i'm left with no one again. No more text messages while i'm on dance lessons. No more dates. No more anything. Well of course, i'll find another guy. Just not now.

SORTED

all sorted

now guys i really need to get more concentrated on studying and passing the most important exams in my life - gcse exams

it's like shit...it's like so shit

it's really weird. that bitch just ruined my life. but i won't tell you this because i'm so overexhausted right now.

it's really baaaad

i want a guy that will understand me!

so long i've not been here...

...that i almost feel sorry for this blog

i mean it was going quite well before i left it for 5 months or so

anyway, i'm back:)

i read sophie kinsella's "the secret dreamworld of a shopaholic" and now reading "shopaholic abroad".

i absolutely love her books. i think she's amazing.

you know, when i was reading the first book, i loved it that much that i couldn't get away from it. so i stayed in, completely isolated for 2 days until i finished the last page. oh yes, i didn't go to school. it felt like i've flown away from the reality . you know. i also watched the movie online but the quality wasn't that high so it was hard to enjoy it. but i wanted to watch it that bad that i actually watched it. now i'm longing to see it in the cinema whenever it will be on in our country.

so about my school. i'm having examinations these days. mock gcse exams. they weren't that bad. i mean, maths was hard but what did i expect? they always make it so hard. i missed two exams which i had to do today but i didn't go to school because i felt too unprepared to do them. 

what else? for this period i've not been here, i had two dancing shows. the first one was actually a dancing competition. we did quite well although we didn't win any prices. they said we had accesories in our dance so we were not allowed to win anything. yes, that's stupid.

the second show was in holiday inn hotel. it was actually worse than the competition because we were less prepared and the stage was so small that we coluldn't fit in so i think we pretty much messed up. my friends who came said it was still amazing and they didn't expect i could dance like this. what on earth they used to think if my bad performance was better than they expected it to be. they thought i was a handicap or something? but we went friday's afterwards and spent some lovely time there with laughs and oreo madness(oh god, it was delicious).

my love life is still kind of incomplete. i went for a date with this guy and it was ok. i actually thought he liked me but he kind of..doesn't ask me out anymore. i mean, okaay..he texts me everyday but so? he still could of asked me out again even though it was only 1.5 week ago.

another guy is completely crazy about me. we went out twice but i don't think i like him. he's a bit boring. but i can't say no to him before i'm sure that the other guy really likes me. so i keep that guy until i find somethibg better. i know, that's bad of me but somethng is better than nothing, right? or at least i thought so.