half term is almost over. i want another one. 5 days is not enough for a proper rest! i'm still feeling very tired. i didn't start my final art piece which is to be sketched by tomorrow. and still need to write 2 essays: one for russian and one for english literature. i feel like im' gonna explode in a second. i want a carefree life. to eat without thinking how bad it's gonna be for me. to go out without thinking that i've got a lot of homework to do. to do whatever i want without thinking about the consequences.

cool us:)

what a lovely day. we got half term now. so yes, reeeeest:)
gymnastics, modelling tomorrow...and then going out and clubbing(my favourite part). i think i'm gonna be home really late next morning. i am a rebel. i wanna do something stupid though. like something everyone will gossip about. haha, i love when people gossip. the funniest part is that you don't even care what they say but they put so much effort in discussing every single detail of you. but it's quite fun though to know that you're discussed and it seems that people just can't get enough of it.

poor people. cool us.

hello. i'm not bothered to do anything again. business studies test tomorrow and i haven't revised well. yeh, another screwed up test. shit. i'm going down. used to be such a good student doing everything PERFECTLY(i bet anna likes this word) and now i just get Cs and Ds and seem to be satisfied with it. am i just getting stupid or what?

school sucks. so does everything.

i fed up with all this school routine: essays, tests, homeworks, exams, teachers getting angry and annoyed... shit. i just need some rest! i've just noticed that most of my teachers hate me and i'm not even saying a thing to them. i'm just trying to be an ordinary student that does homework on time(well, most of it) and revises for the test and exams.
you know what, sometimes it's like really hard to do all the homework on time. like you come home and you don't wanna do anything. you just think that life sucks and you wanna cry so much. or family problems are bothering you. my grandma is in hospital now and i'm soo worried about her health. so i don't fucking have a mood for homework. duh:'( but teachers will never get it! they're going to give you a warning letter. they're going to hate you, hate you, hate you. hate me for everything i do. for skyving lessons, days, for not giving essays on time, for not listening properly on the lessons. and they don't care that i'm having a mental disorder. that i have apathy towards everything. they just want you to be a perfect student who loves and enjoys studying at every moment of my life which is impossible unless you're a robot.

i'm getting better

well, whatever happens, we neeed to carry on living. of course, we can cry all the time and this will be the easier way of living. but why show people that you're looking for easy ways? just smile. and people will say you're strong. i am strong. i can cope with everything.

life's shit

if life was given to people, then there was a particular purpose for it. there must be a mission for everyone in this world. well, if so..then i don't know what to do with my life. i'm so fed up with everything. i thought i had a perfect life, my dad is rich and he provided me with most. but he got robbed and there's no money anymore. everything's ruined. i don't know what to do now. life sucks and sorry, i don't want it. can you take it back, please?

i'm a loveshy baby

Heya heya heya heya hey,
I'm thinking about you, i'm a loveshy baby
Got to got to get together be strong
Cos our love will be coming and i won't be loveshy anymore


well, things are good as you see. i'm losing weight and getting more comfortable with myself:) i was wearing white top today and it looked awesome on me! ooh i love you life:)