awesome party

Champagne night was great
pics are available on facebook, if you're my friend there
that was so fun, well most of us were drunk, but who cares? still was cool
we were on webcam chatting with different people and then we watched a movie, had a sushi meal and took lots of pictures
well, i'll have to do it again somewhen later:):)

Champagne night on friday!

4 friends are coming for a sleepover. we're gonna have champagne, baileys and tia maria. also we're gonna have sushi.
can't wait, babes!
x

yeh, i know i haven't been on here for loong.

i've missed you. but school takes most of my time
and dancing takes the rest of it:(
i'm very good. ve been having some itneresting events recently. i went to this model agency and that was quite cool. we were taught the catwalk and some positions, how to turn etc. met some new people. we'll see what it's going to lead to:)
had this chat with jamie yesterday. he asked me to be his girlfriend. well, i dunno, i dunno, but i said yes. maybe, when he's going to come to my city we'll go out and stuff:) he thinks i'm hot<3 and he's been asking me to go on webcam like every day before:)
today we had pe and we played tennis. was great cos i fucking love tennis! i used to do it for 3 years so i'm quite good.
and i'm still trying to lose some weight. very difficult. i skipped lunch today. had only breakfast. i hope i'll be lighter tomorrow. oh, puh-lease!

the idea of losing weight can't leave me for the last one week. i try as hard as i can but it's still very difficult for me to get skinnier. fucking nature. wanna be skinny!

cry, baby, cry.

i really love my dad but he makes me cry everytime he comes to visit me. i think it's something from my childhood when my parents divorced and i had my young heart broken. i was only 3 but it didn't stop him from leaving our family. since that we had a lot of arguments, he's been really angry at me sometimes and for no reason so i'm very sensitive now with what he says. even the smallest thing makes me cry. he might not know it because i try to hide my tears, he might not care because he lives HIS life. but i cry... i cry.
why do bad things happen to good people? i know he's good but everytime i see his eyes drunk i turn around and cry. cry a lot. and cry.
my dad is good. and i love him. thanks for everything you've done, daddy.

if people are being bitches to me, i'll be a bitch to them.

i don't wanna be a fucking 'opportunity cost' as it's called in a Business Studies book. I'm the one and only. don't wanna hear people telling me "if i won't be able to go there, i'll go out with you tonight" i wanna be the first choice! i want people to want to meet me more that anything else. i wanna be Adriana from "Chasing Harry Winston". she might be not that well-educated but she can always get whatever she wants! she could teach me if she was real, but she's not:( let's stop it. i'm GONNA be a bitch from now. just wait.

i'm fucking annoyed and tired.

my mom has been annoying me all the day because i got these shoes from Peacocks and she noticed that there was a little deffect on them and she started yelling at me that now she has to go back to the shop to change them . argh. wtf? i didn't ask her. and then she thought i was lying to her because i misremembered the amount of money she left for me to go and buy some clothes and i thought she actually left less than she did. not a big deal. but she thought i was being dishonest and trying to get more money from her which is a bullshit because i would never do that. then i was the first to blame for not making some dinner. but i don't fucking wanna eat. i've been on my feet for the whole day, starting from morning when i had to go to the cosmetologist to ask her to remove one spot that she missed out when she did the face-cleaning. and then i went to the shopping mall because i needed to get some bras as i'm getting annoyed with those with push-up, they are too hot to wear in summer. and then i've been meeting my friends whom i haven't seen for the whole fucking 4 months. and then i had a massage as i've got some back problems. and it was painful, believe me. so now, after all this i'm having delayed onset muscle soreness and cannot be bothered to make a salad because my 19 y.o. brother wants to eat. he can get something from the fridge, it has loads in it.
i'm not in the mood, as you see. so if you want to tell that i'm wrong with all written above, please, don't, it'll be better for you to keep silence:)

i'm turning into a home lover...

Gosh. I used to be such an outgoing person partying every saturday but a trip to my home country ukraine has changed me a lot. well, i live here with my mom so while she's at her job place i'm alone and... i'm loving it. i love to be at home, it's something very special. and especially, i love to be alone at home. it's when you can walk in your underwear and listen to the music played at maximum volume. when you can sing along and do whatever you want. cook whatever you want whithout my mom telling me that i'm going to mess up everything. it's just brilliant. my friends have been asking me out now but i'm not sure if i want to. it's just that it's so nice to lay on the sofa and watch tv... and i've had a face cleaning 2 hours ago and my face is red as tomato now:) so i guess i'll be staying at home for another hour and then i'll decide...