school sucks. so does everything.

i fed up with all this school routine: essays, tests, homeworks, exams, teachers getting angry and annoyed... shit. i just need some rest! i've just noticed that most of my teachers hate me and i'm not even saying a thing to them. i'm just trying to be an ordinary student that does homework on time(well, most of it) and revises for the test and exams.
you know what, sometimes it's like really hard to do all the homework on time. like you come home and you don't wanna do anything. you just think that life sucks and you wanna cry so much. or family problems are bothering you. my grandma is in hospital now and i'm soo worried about her health. so i don't fucking have a mood for homework. duh:'( but teachers will never get it! they're going to give you a warning letter. they're going to hate you, hate you, hate you. hate me for everything i do. for skyving lessons, days, for not giving essays on time, for not listening properly on the lessons. and they don't care that i'm having a mental disorder. that i have apathy towards everything. they just want you to be a perfect student who loves and enjoys studying at every moment of my life which is impossible unless you're a robot.